So the communities I joined…hmm. Although some posts are interesting, they are taking over my friends page! Within two hours, I deleted “ohnotheydidnt” because it was overwhelming the stuff that was in there. Now I am considering deleting the other communities as well because they are just as overwhelming. When I go through almost 100 posts and finally find those of my actual friends, that is a little sad!! I could filter, but…ugh, lazy. I don’t know, we shall see.

Up early today and I want to get so much stuff done, but I am frustrated because I took too many pills this weekend (and gave one away) and now I will need to be totally careful. This means that I either a) get nothing done and only be in minimal pain, b) get things done and just be in pain and deal, or c) get things done and take pills as needed and worry about the aftermath of being short on pills later. Sigh, so frustrating!! I cannot WAIT until the day when my life and what I do is not dependent on those damn things.

I was going to do a Slim-Fast shake this morning but I might have a piece of KFC chicken instead (LOL, I accidentally typed ‘children’ instead of ‘chicken’). Jeremy is on his diet and I don’t think Brooke will be eating any, so I don’t want to waste it. I could always use the protein I suppose.

I have so much crap to do, groan. My mom will be here in two weeks, I am leaving in four. I need to get stuff done dammit!! It is all the paperwork that I have to do that is driving me crazy honestly. It is the same with the computer, hunching over to see something hurts SO bad. But the paperwork has to go out today.

I have to go wake up Brooke now. She is getting to be so grumpy these days, I hope this morning is different.

I started my new job today. I am exhausted and I have brain fry. I had to read so much training material and crap today my brain felt like it would explode. So much new information and everything. I am not sure about a lot of it, but I guess that I will get used to it. I am so tired though and so sore…I totally hurt my back yesterday and it is really bothering me today. There is a lot to say about the job but honestly I am just too tired.

I have four days of work this week and then I got Friday off to drive down to the funeral. It is all still really hard for me to think about. I know that it will be really hard for me to see Carlyn and Victoria and know that we aren’t together for a happy reason and to go in that church and have to deal in person with the fact that our friend is gone. God, I miss him so much. I missed him for years and then I got him back. I talked to him for two and a half months and then he was gone again and now he is gone forever. I can’t tell you what a devastating feeling that is. I am sure some of you know though already.

Good night and I love you all.