I started my new job today. I am exhausted and I have brain fry. I had to read so much training material and crap today my brain felt like it would explode. So much new information and everything. I am not sure about a lot of it, but I guess that I will get used to it. I am so tired though and so sore…I totally hurt my back yesterday and it is really bothering me today. There is a lot to say about the job but honestly I am just too tired.

I have four days of work this week and then I got Friday off to drive down to the funeral. It is all still really hard for me to think about. I know that it will be really hard for me to see Carlyn and Victoria and know that we aren’t together for a happy reason and to go in that church and have to deal in person with the fact that our friend is gone. God, I miss him so much. I missed him for years and then I got him back. I talked to him for two and a half months and then he was gone again and now he is gone forever. I can’t tell you what a devastating feeling that is. I am sure some of you know though already.

Good night and I love you all.