Oh my gosh, I can’t remember feeling this exhausted in a long, long time. Not even after I had stayed up for 38 hours did I feel this run down and just drained. I am having soup and then I am going to bed. I am hoping that I don’t have to get up until later tomorrow morning. Please God, let Jeremy and Brooke let me sleep in so that I get a full night’s sleep for once.

I don’t think I am working tomorrow. My boss was supposed to ask me to work, but it is after 10pm and I have not gotten a call about tomorrow. If so, I will go in because we could always use the money, but if not, there is a ton of stuff that I need to do. I need to clean the house, unpack boxes and straighten stuff out, go shopping and just somehow get to feeling better. I have had a cold for weeks, since before the move, so the end of June…and it isn’t going away. I have noticed over the past couple weeks that my energy level is getting lower and lower and I have felt worse and worse. I have not had the ability to really do anything around the house, I feel really guilty about that.

Work is going well. I am beginning to get the hang of it I think. I know that a lot of clients are taking advantage of me, the whole sight thing and the fact that I am a pushover. I know my limits though and I don’t mind letting them get away with small crap. I mean seriously, they are adults and even if they are addicts, they are human too. You know how much crap I get away with on a daily basis and yet I am able to still function normally. I don’t know, I guess that is why I am not a counselor there although I would love to be.

Can’t think…must eat and sleep.

Oh yeah, took Carla out to go see Wall-E and go to dinner tonight. That was fun. I had her get embarrassed because I asked them to sing happy birthday to her. It was pretty cool. Wall-E was ok…not as great as I thought it would be, but it was alright.

Must sleep soon… I wish I could go to a doctor because I really do not think my health is doing well at all. I am 7 months out and after 8 hours of sitting in an office, I feel like I am going to collapse. That is not normal. Note: I only worked six hours today and this is how I feel. I do not think it is good.

I got this from the wls, it was posted today and totally gives me thought. I could probably go on and on about it all day.

-134 million American adults are overweight or obese.

-205,000 Americans had weight-loss surgery in 2007.

-Average weight-loss a year after bariatric surgery: 61 percent

-Average cost of surgery: $17,000 to $25,000, but can go higher.

Ya see, the problems is that in our society we are almost pressured to be fat. Our ancestors were thinner for many reasons. Number one, they had access to fresh food all the time. They grew their own gardens or shared with neighbors that did. They had chickens and cows and pigs, thus they had fresh meat. They had the mentality of “using the daylight hours” so they worked and did chores until the sun went down. They walked more, rode their bikes more, and did more hard labor. Today though, things are much different. We have to specifically plan to exercise, scheduling it in as if it were some kind of appointment. We eat “fast food’, even if it isn’t from a restaurant. We are short on money so we buy food at wholesale prices with lots of preservatives so they will last longer in our fridge or pantries. We have jobs where we sit down and work. We have TVs and computers to entertain us, more sitting. We have magazines and TVs telling us that we are fat and we need to lose weight, that message often brings about reverse psychology and we end up bingeing even more than before. A lot of people are on medication now for diseases that weren’t as prevalent in the old days, for reasons I explained above, but those medications also slow down our metabolism which also makes it harder to lose weight and be more healthy.

We feel bad about our own bodies. But we don’t have to. I have got to say, and I am not biased at all, I have some of the most attractive group of people on my friend’s list and in real life. Yet, almost all of you and almost all of the people that I know in real life too, are all on diets and watching what they eat. You all think you need to lose weight, even if you look really healthy. Be careful what other people make you believe, what the media makes you believe.