Oh my gosh, I can’t remember feeling this exhausted in a long, long time. Not even after I had stayed up for 38 hours did I feel this run down and just drained. I am having soup and then I am going to bed. I am hoping that I don’t have to get up until later tomorrow morning. Please God, let Jeremy and Brooke let me sleep in so that I get a full night’s sleep for once.

I don’t think I am working tomorrow. My boss was supposed to ask me to work, but it is after 10pm and I have not gotten a call about tomorrow. If so, I will go in because we could always use the money, but if not, there is a ton of stuff that I need to do. I need to clean the house, unpack boxes and straighten stuff out, go shopping and just somehow get to feeling better. I have had a cold for weeks, since before the move, so the end of June…and it isn’t going away. I have noticed over the past couple weeks that my energy level is getting lower and lower and I have felt worse and worse. I have not had the ability to really do anything around the house, I feel really guilty about that.

Work is going well. I am beginning to get the hang of it I think. I know that a lot of clients are taking advantage of me, the whole sight thing and the fact that I am a pushover. I know my limits though and I don’t mind letting them get away with small crap. I mean seriously, they are adults and even if they are addicts, they are human too. You know how much crap I get away with on a daily basis and yet I am able to still function normally. I don’t know, I guess that is why I am not a counselor there although I would love to be.

Can’t think…must eat and sleep.

Oh yeah, took Carla out to go see Wall-E and go to dinner tonight. That was fun. I had her get embarrassed because I asked them to sing happy birthday to her. It was pretty cool. Wall-E was ok…not as great as I thought it would be, but it was alright.

Must sleep soon… I wish I could go to a doctor because I really do not think my health is doing well at all. I am 7 months out and after 8 hours of sitting in an office, I feel like I am going to collapse. That is not normal. Note: I only worked six hours today and this is how I feel. I do not think it is good.

Dear ____,

I want to say that your passive-aggressive attitude is lame and stupid. What, are we in high school now? You have an issue with me, so you take me off of your Myspace? Ooooo, I am so shattered! Your condescending, holier-than-thou, "I am never wrong" attitude sucks, and I think you need to get off your high horse and recognize that you are just like EVERYONE ELSE. I have tried to be nice to you, and I have tried to have a relationship with you, not just for us but for everyone who has to be around us. Apparently, you want to continue to have a crappy attitude, so that is all on YOU.

By the way, thanks for the concern on how my new job is going, thanks for the concern on how I am holding up since one of my best friends died, thanks for the concern on how I am physically, as usual your caring for me is quite underwhelming. I tried really hard to get you interested in a project that we could do together and your attitude was "Um, I am so past that." Well, guess what? You aren't past it, you never will be til you actually admit that you once had a problem. I had concern for you and your family and I was asking and trying to be nice. But your lack of concern for us is intolerable. As a good friend of mine says...FAIL.

Sincerely yours,
your Myspace unfriend