A couple months ago, I posted a video. I can't find the exact entry, but the video is here. This is totally how I am feeling right now. I am so overwhelmed with evreything that is going on. Joel's death, the finances, the new job, family stuff, being sick, and Jeremy and I. It is just a lot to handle and I guess I am not handling it very well at all. I am just really not doing well. I am going into a depression that I haven't been in years. I think I know where it is coming from and that probably means that this isn't going anywhere soon. All I want to do is be alone and sleep. I feel so alone...I know that I am not, but I feel that way.

On another note, I was struck to listen to this song tonight and it made me think of Joel. It used to be one of his favorite songs when it first came out.


I was thinking that I wonder what he did when he met Jesus. I can only imagine that he must have been so very happy to be with the Lord he walked with for so long.