Friday night date with husband alone while daughter is happily playing somewhere. Sleepin a little bit, make breakfast for everyone, then have the mess magically clean itself. Then to shower and we all leave without arguing with one another. Next, we go somewhere that is SO much fun for all three of us yet we would not have to worry about the cost. Finally that day, meet up with good friends and have a BBQ and some music. Sleep in the next morning and go to a late church service that is totally inspiring and lifts us up before we leave. Hanging out with family that afternoon, have another BBQ and lots of laughter. Go to bed happily that night!

My dream house is a big rambling farmhouse, with big spacious, airy rooms with lots of light. I have ALWAYS dreamed of a wrap-around porch. I soooooo want to sit on a porch at night time and enjoy the air and the peace and quiet. I want to have rocking chairs on the porch and of course a porch swing, don't forget about that. I want a huge, open kitchen, much like the one I have now. I want the bedrooms to be big and I want my daughter to have a nice, big window seat in her room so that she can sit there and dream and be comfortable doing whatever she wants to do, and wishing on stars. I would not mind a curving staircase with an open "study" between the bedrooms upstairs. that would be an area for the computers, an extra TV for the Wii, and a place for my daughter to hang out with her friends when she gets older. I would love a 4 bedroom house, because three just doesn't seem like enough. I would like a double oven in the kitchen and although I love the open kitchen floorplan, I would not mind an island with counter space and a little sink. Outside, I want a big front yard with a nice big oak tree that gives lots of shade but doesn't overtake the yard. I want a white picket fence (don't laugh) around the front. In the back yard, I would like a grassy area for the kids and dogs to play, and then I would love to have a pool. I want to do what my sister Missy has done and do the solution where you don't need chlorine ever to keep your pool clean yet it is always clean. I would not mind an adjoining spa as well! Last but not least, I would like my dream house to be on a quiet surburban street where we know everyone and I have at least one best friend on the block and our kids get to play together all the time. This is my dream. It is completely unattainable, but that is why they are called "dreams" right?

Oh my gosh, when have I not? Yeah, I am all about being honest and everything but I also am a people pleaser too and I totally am all about pleasing the person I am with. No, i don't think it ever works out. Pretending you are someone you are not is never a good idea. The person you are with will eventually find out about the real you and then you will have wasted time. It is better to just be who you are and compromise with the person instead of be someone you are not.

My favorite mother character from TV was definitely Roseanne Connor from the show Roseanne. She was the ultimate mom, she used humor and wisdom together often. When it was needed she was kind and mushy, but mostly she was the pillar of the whole family, she was everyone's tower of strength. Yes she yelled and was often sarcastic, but she was also generous to a fault and extremely loyal.

Although I am immune-suppressed, I am not concerned at all about catching the "swine flu". I feel like it is being hyped way up by the media and they are trying to scare the crap out of people by calling it a "pandemic". I know that people have died thus it is serious, but almost all of those people except for one lived in a country that doesn't have the best healthcare or insurance or whose to say exactly why those people died? I think people need to calm down.

I am not a country or wilderness girl. I do not htink I could survive long at all. I don't like ot be cold or dirty!! And I will NOT eat bugs.

I will be wearing shorts and a sleeveless top and walking to my doctor's appointment after I walk to pick up Brooke from schoo;!! Hah, I guess that doesn't count. Maybe I will just say that I will clean the house with green products!

I have come to hate March with a vengenance. As soon as it arrives, I cannot wait for it to be over, yet it used to be one of my favorite months. I am glad that it is over and we are that much closer to warmer weather!!

This is hard for me. My family has a lot of Alzheimers in it, I have had cancer issues in the past, I have vision issues, etc. I don't know what to choose if I had to choose just one. The one thing that makes me the saddest though is pediatric cancers and pediatric leukemia. I get so mad and frustrated when I see innocent kids have to go through so much pain and suffering for no reason. So if there could be one scientific or medical breakthrough I would like them to find a painless cure for all pediatric cancers and leukemia.

Haha, I needed a laugh and it came in the form of an email forward...

THE SPOILED UNDER-30 CROWD!!!

If you are 30 or older you will think this is hilarious!!!!

When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears
with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When
they were growing up; what with walking Twenty-five miles to school
every morning

.... Uphill... barefoot.

BOTH ways

Yadda, yadda, yadda

And I remember promising myself that when I grew up,
there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it

And how easy they've got it!

But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of Thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today.

You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia!

And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it!

I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we
wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalogue!!

There was no email!! We had to actually write somebody a letter, with a pen!

....Then you had to walk all the way across the street and put
it in the mailbox and it would take like a week to get there!

There were no MP3's or Napsters! You wanted to steal music, you had to hitchhike to the damn record store and shoplift it yourself!

Or you had to wait around all day to tape it off the radio and
the DJ'd usually talk over the beginning and @#*% it all up! (Ugh, seriously!!)


We didn't have fancy crap like Call Waiting! If you were on the phone and somebody else called they got a busy signal, that's it!

And we didn't have fancy Caller ID either! When the phone rang, you had no idea who it was! It could be your school, your mom, your boss, your Bookie, your drug dealer, a
collections agent, you just didn't know!!! You had to pick it up and take your
chances, mister!

We didn't have any fancy Sony Playstation video games with high-resolution 3-D graphics! We had the Atari 2600! With games like 'Space Invaders' and 'asteroids' and don't forget 'Kaboom'. Your guy was a little square! You actually had to use your Imagination!! and there were no multiple levels or screens, it was just one screen. Forever!

And you could never win. The game just kept getting harder and harder and faster and faster until you died! Just like LIFE!


You had to use a little book called a TV Guide to find out what was on! You were screwed when it came to channel surfing! You had to get off your ass and walk over to the TV to change the Channel and there was no Cartoon Network either! You could only get cartoons
on Saturday Morning. Do you hear what I'm saying!?! We had to wait ALL WEEK for cartoons, you spoiled Little rat-&%$@##!

And we didn't have microwaves, if we wanted to heat something up we had to use the stove ... Imagine that!

That's exactly what I'm talking about! You kids today have got it too easy...
You're spoiled. You guys wouldn't have lasted five minutes back in 1980!

Regards,
The over 30 Crowd

So the communities I joined…hmm. Although some posts are interesting, they are taking over my friends page! Within two hours, I deleted “ohnotheydidnt” because it was overwhelming the stuff that was in there. Now I am considering deleting the other communities as well because they are just as overwhelming. When I go through almost 100 posts and finally find those of my actual friends, that is a little sad!! I could filter, but…ugh, lazy. I don’t know, we shall see.

Up early today and I want to get so much stuff done, but I am frustrated because I took too many pills this weekend (and gave one away) and now I will need to be totally careful. This means that I either a) get nothing done and only be in minimal pain, b) get things done and just be in pain and deal, or c) get things done and take pills as needed and worry about the aftermath of being short on pills later. Sigh, so frustrating!! I cannot WAIT until the day when my life and what I do is not dependent on those damn things.

I was going to do a Slim-Fast shake this morning but I might have a piece of KFC chicken instead (LOL, I accidentally typed ‘children’ instead of ‘chicken’). Jeremy is on his diet and I don’t think Brooke will be eating any, so I don’t want to waste it. I could always use the protein I suppose.

I have so much crap to do, groan. My mom will be here in two weeks, I am leaving in four. I need to get stuff done dammit!! It is all the paperwork that I have to do that is driving me crazy honestly. It is the same with the computer, hunching over to see something hurts SO bad. But the paperwork has to go out today.

I have to go wake up Brooke now. She is getting to be so grumpy these days, I hope this morning is different.

My first memory is playing at our house that we had that was on the outskirts of town and going next door to the neighbor's house who had a big red barn and he would let me play inside. All of my first memories are at that house. We didn't stay there long though.

This is a hilarious video, you have to watch it soon before the link changes to another video. About an hour after I left work, there was a "suspicious item" left out in front and the Bomb Squad got called. You will even get to see some of my clients in this video, good job on keeping confidentiality news team! Anyway, this is where I work.

http://www.localnewscomesfirst.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=2110&Itemid=1

Good Lord... My dear sweet beloved sent this to me.

http://xkcd.com/77

So for those who read my post about my Christmas presents, y'all will get this.

Jeremy sent me this link tonight and said it was a funny comic and that I should take a look.

http://xkcd.com/473/

I am STRUGGLING to stay awake right now. I want to wait until bedtime before I sleep. I want to stay awake!

I am an hour from home. We had a good time. I am still in a lot of pain. I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Happy birthday Andrea (gnawtee)! I am a lot closer to you right now, wish we had more time to see you. Hope you have a great day!

We are going to Seattle, on the road now. I am in a lot of pain today because I had to lift HEAVY suitcase upstairs last night at work.

I don't want to get into any detail right now. For those who have been my LJ friend for a while, you will probably understand where this is coming from. For those who haven't been, then I guess skip this or just appreciate it for what it is.

To my dear friend,

I miss you, every day I think about you and I wish more than anything you were here on Earth, alive and HEALTHY. Calling your mom was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but whether I called her or not, you still occupied my thoughts most of the day. Today was your favorite holiday, what was it like sitting celebrating Jesus' birthday with him? I am guessing that you didn't wear your typical Santa hat, huh? "sad laugh" I wasn't going to post anything, at least not publicly or for anyone to see, but I got this poem from my pastor and I found it too appropriate. I miss you and I love you.

Jennifer

The Work of Christmas

When the song of the angels is stilled,
When the star in the sky is gone,
When the kings and princes are home,
When the shepherds are back with their flock,
The work of Christmas begins:
To find the lost,
To heal the broken,
To feed the hungry,
To release the prisoner,
To rebuild the nations,
To bring peace among brothers,
To make music in the heart.

by Howard Thurman

To my LJ friends-
Please remember to not forget to tell people that you love that you love them. My friend and I were too stubborn, to weak in pride to forgive and tell each other how much we missed each other. We missed out on two and a half years worth of not talking and being angry and missing the other person. That is time that I can never get back now. Please know, at least from me, that if you are reading this, I love you and I care about YOU. You are not just another username to me, you are not just another post on a page. You are a person that I care about, think about, and pray for. This Christmas day, before I got to bed, I wanted you to all know that I thank you for everything you do for me and for the person you are.